Friday, September 25, 2009

My heart's canvas ...

What a beautiful word picture that phrase is...my heart's canvas.

With so much going on and so many daily obligations I am finding less and less time to do the things that bring me joy. Things, that for many years I've taken for granted. Like my 'quiet time' in the mornings. Ever since 1980, I've started my day with quiet time - it's when I read my Bible, update my journal, sometimes flip through the pages of completed scrapbooks, pray, and sometimes - just stop and think...

But all of a sudden in the last 2 weeks, my morning quiet time routine has been interrupted. My oldest stepson decided to flip-flop his morning routine. Instead of showering first (while I was enjoying my quiet time), all of a sudden now he's having breakfast first. And just like that - instead of a quiet house while I'm sitting in my favorite spot on the couch - there's all this clanging and banging going on right around the corner in the kitchen. Not knowing exactly what else to do, I took my coffee, my Bible, and my journal upstairs to my bedroom. But there's no place to sit in the bedroom, except on the bed - and that's not a good spot for me. I've tried it for a week now and it's just not working. I've informed my husband that I need a comfy 'quiet time' chair in the bedroom - but unfortunately, I (we) can't afford that right now...

But my mind and heart are suffering right now from this 'interruption.'
Other activities which bring me joy, which I have taken for granted and have been interrupted recently is group exercise. Again, since the 1980's I've always attended some kind of group exercise class - that has been interrupted by the football season. Oh, I still walk ... but the lack of group exercise has got me feeling stressed out, and definitely less in shape. I'm determined to get back to it ... but it's very frustrating to me now.
I need to return to the routines and activities which bring me joy ...
This blog brings me pleasure and joy, too. It's another way, besides scrapbooking, to record my life's journey. And I'm amazed at some of the things I've written. Many feelings and moments which would have been forgotten, if not recorded here. This blog has become my heart's canvas ...

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